Earlier this year I moved on from dating a guy that I actually really liked and enjoyed spending time with. Ran into him the other day at the store and realized I still do like him and that I have actually missed spending time with him. I enjoyed his company a lot. I never had bad feelings toward him and was sorry when it felt like he just wasn't into me. That was the whole reason I moved on. I didn't want a huge commitment of any kind but I did want to be something a little more than a time filler for him. Don't we all want to think that we bring a smile to someones face?
Perhaps it all happened for a reason. What I do know is that I keep wondering if I did the right thing by breaking things off. He has never made me think for a second that he misses me or that I added anything great to his days so I guess that is my answer. The truth stings at times I suppose.
I hope I have never made anyone feel like they are inconsequential in my life. It is such an awful feeling to think you didn't matter. Looking back I wonder if I ever told this guy that he did make me smile and that I really did like his company. I know I thanked him for his time and all he did for me but that's different from letting someone know it meant a lot to you. Lesson learned. I won't make that mistake with anyone else no matter how it all ends. Sometimes it is nice to just tell someone that you are glad they are there with you. Who doesn't want to hear that?
Did I mention I had to run into this guy on my ugliest day of the year? Doesn't that just figure? :)
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